As an hyperverbal #ActuallyAutistic person being alone all the time sucks. I need my own space and alone time, but I am craving for deep talks with people, who understand patterns. I miss connection so much, it feels like my heart becomes a stone, although beagle Lumi and the beauty of art and nature still keep the soft part alive. Because of my monotropic mind, groups (this includes posting on social media) are often difficult for me.
If you are in a similar situation and are looking for a friend or just an honest chat, please send me a dm in English (I kow my English is not perfect, but I love practicing) or German.
My gender baseline is female, but I am very fluid (dancing with the girls, playing and fighting with the boys). My main special interest is "trying to understand this world, patterns, systems, people". I love reading, dancing and nature (especially water), since my childhood and I have watched #got and #StarTrek Voyager many times.
Boosts are very much appreciated.
TW: trauma, emotional abuse:
P.S. My last irl social contact has been a liar and emotional abuser, who made me experience my childhood trauma again (trauma bonding) and pushed me into super dark shadow work. It ended up with his wife and me talking on the phone, helping each other to understand the situation and me understanding myself and my kinks much better. I don't want to be part of this shit again and I will always give abusers a fight.